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Bobby
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ya, he blames you, you psychotic idiot

Joanne
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Jane, when all is said and done you only wanted to do one thing and that was to HELP people. Despite your own situation all you have tried to do is support people, that takes a special kind of person.

There’s absolutely no way that Loser is going to blame you for his relapse.
If I know Loser he’ll still be having a sneaky peek at the forum and he’ll be upset that you’re upset. Loser’s no fool, he respects you and values your input on the forum. You and loser are alike, kind, sensitive and you both have a genuine desire to HELP people.

I think I should go, I’m not saying that to seek attention, I’m saying it because I really should go.

There is a troll, CM, and there’s no denying the fact he has shown us a master class in trolling. I surrendered 2 days ago, he was starting to get into my head, in a controlling way, I was beginning to think I was going to lose my sanity.

As for the gambling, will I ever stop, I doubt it, I think I’ll be the type of gambler who will keep haemorrhaging money. I’ll probably lose the money I won yesterday before the weekend is out. I may not lose as much as I have done in the past because i’m more tuned into my gambling habits, the dangers of gambling etc but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to give it up.

All the best folks!

Joanne

CM
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I truly hope you have a gamble free life. All the best

Trevor
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To Jane.
Trevor is real. my posts are all from me…no one has pretended to be me and there isn’t anyone else called Trevor that is posting. I live in the Midlands with my wife. My beautiful wife from Scotland. I am a compulsive gambler and that is why I post on this site. I am also extremely fortunate to have witnessed your advise and insights and knowledge of gambling. It has helped me cope and know I am not alone.

I am real. I am as real as your Mum…i hope things are going ok with her. I am as real as the door you broke some months ago.

Keep strong….keep trying. Take care.

Jane
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:) wow Trevor. What a lovely post. Yes, that door. Still haven’t properly fixed it though the money has just about been paid back now. I am glad you are real! I wish your problems weren’t real though and that you were free from this disease. Will chat to you again soon. Think everyone needs a little break and to be honest, I think I do too. I enjoyed my week off and worked on my knees which are getting back to normal (but don’t tell my partner cos he is still fetching and carrying after me and I have got rather used to it!)

I don’t seem to do half measures very well. That’s why I got asked on so many pub crawls. Ha ha. It’s kind of all or nothing with me. I just want everything to be good but it’s not always possible. It’s the same issue I’ve had all my life and the discontentment has come from always trying to fix things, relationships, problems, etc.. I tried stepping back with Joanne, but this place became about more than just advice, and I like to chat (surprise!) With so few people on the site, things got more personal and more familiar. It just evolved that way but I never lost sight of why we were all here. I don’t give up on people easily but I know that we are not here to make friends. It’s just nice when we all get along, that’s all. Mcnulty is right though and it would be easier for everyone if posts were less interactive. I guess we all just know each other too well. Again, it’s the way the site evolved when it reduced down to just a few members. Inevitable, I suppose. That and the open nature of the website being in one continuous thread.
Thank you for your post, Trevor and for yours too, Joanne.
Best wishes to Monica, Mat, Andy and Loser. Keep away from the footy, Nik. If England lose, at least you won’t. Gonna be the next Duncan. I got this now. I can feel it. Something’s clicked and it wasn’t just my knees. I’m going to remain a non gambler. Gamstop has really helped shift my focus. I can’t gamble hardly anywhere now, it would be such an effort to try to find a place to bet, so I don’t even think about trying.

That really is it now. Everyone stay well. Have some good news for me when I come back in August. I’m expecting big things from all of you. Take care of the forum.
All the best.

Trevor
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Thanks Jane. I’m pleased the relationship you have with gambling has changed for the better. It is a disease, one that I think will always be around us afflicted souls, but it is how we manage it. We need to take back control and make gambling a dormant part of our lives.

Keep strong…keep trying…take care

You have a family and a body that needs lots of care….please dont gamble. When we gamble all the bad things in life feel worse and all the good things in life feel mundane compared to the putrid illusion of gambling bliss.

Mcnulty
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Please Jane stop having dialogue with Joanne. It’s you 2 that tend to break the goodwill communication. You both rattle each other’s cage. If you both like this site to be better.

You can both talk about your experiences & failures keep it open. stop referring or being critical to each other.

I have heard enough of back & forward msgs from both of you.

Jane
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I apologise. It is not my intention to cause disruption, only resolve. Bad feelings fester in me and it is not good for my recovery or anyone else’s for that matter. I feel that I contributed to Loser’s relapse by causing a stir the other week and I am sorry for that. I wish him and all of you only the best. Always have. Hence my need to fix things and be happy as I don’t want to leave on a sour note. It is the reason why myself and Joanne have continued to converse on this forum, despite multiple fall outs. Two big personalities that clash I think. I appreciate that this is difficult for others on the forum and it is the reason why I am now going to post only my days.
I thought that if I explained why I felt the way I did, then maybe Joanne could be more content in moving forward and things could settle on the forum. It’s not fair to throw around accusations without explaining why and I felt that that was troubling Joanne. That’s all. I only meant well by coming back to post the explanation. I am sorry to have caused you any upset. You should post more Mcnulty. The forum needs more input.
All the best to you and to everyone. :) Be back mid August.

Joanne
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Okay, I’ll come clean. You don’t deserve to feel bad Jane, and everyone is right in supporting you.

I came to the forum in Oct 2016. Within days I was banned. If I recall correctly I made a post where I mentioned a 7000 pound win, I think it was Carl who said I shouldn’t mentioned wins, I disagreed on the grounds that it was part of my story. Simon banned me. I stayed away from the forum for 53 days and returned just before Christmas. I then spoke out of turn to both you and Kate. I couldn’t relate to your depression. I apologise for these comments. It then kicked off again on the 26th (boxing day). Mat mentioned a win and because I had relapsed after 50+ days , (I think I lost 1500 on BGO) I was annoyed because he got to mention a win whereas I got banned for mentioning mine. Carl also complained about Mat mentioning his win but I was the one targeted so naturally that annoyed me as well.

Loser and I connected at this point. You then accused us of deliberately leaving you out of our conversations. It wasn’t like that, I was just responding to Loser’s posts, nothing more, nothing less. I think we had another spat over that. Shortly after that I left, but came back several weeks later, I missed Loser. As we know, he’s good fun.

Then I had a swipe at NIK and Duncan. I thought Nik a bit odd because he never thanked anyone when they supported him and I found it annoying when Duncan would say things like ‘you won’t miss Gambling, there’s nothing to miss etc. Well I did miss gambling and I still do despite all the harm its done to me. I apologise to both Nik and Duncan for my comments.

Monica then arrived on the scene and I couldn’t relate to all the religious ramblings, none of it seemed to make much sense. I don’t understand why some of you go on about Karma either. As far as I’m concerned it’s a case of ‘no honour among gamblers’. We all know the score, gambling’s a risk.

Then you, Monica and Kate had a swipe at me and called me a narcissist which I probably deserved. Then I got trolled, I probably deserved everything that was written about me. Then I got falsely accused of trolling myself. Then a character called Marc arrived on the scene and I got wrongly accused of being him. He did exist.

Then the forum closed down because of all the arguing.

After the forum reopened a character called CM appeared. Every time he posted I felt that I was back under suspicion. He does exist, it’s not me. I was then falsely accused of being him. It really got to me so I thought if I invented another character I could work out who he was. So yes, I posted as ‘outside looking in’, in the hope that I could catch him out and hopefully prove once and for all that it wasn’t me. That I hadn’t trolled myself, that I wasn’t Marc or CM. That these people do exist.

After that it was just a case of defending myself.

I earned my bad reputation when i first came here so I guess it was only natural that I got accused of being the trolls.

That’s it ….. Joanne

Jane
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That’s the thing though, Joanne. I don’t want your post to become less frequent. I enjoyed your company on here that’s why it bothers me so much to think that this is you. Don’t you see that? It used to be okay when you just went off on one under your own name, cos then at least I knew where I stood. I often questioned why you would take to doing it under another name because you were always so openly direct, but then I thought maybe it’s because we all stopped talking with you every time you would go off on one, and you would just come on here, talk to yourself, tell yourself goodnight and leave and that made me wonder if you had truly changed or if you had simply changed tack. Like I said, if I’m wrong, I’m wrong.

If someone else is genuinely doing this and it is not you, then I am truly sorry, but I have always felt that you want me out and you have made that obvious more than a few times. You mentioned a few times that these people on here like me so maybe that’s why you wanted them out too and have some fresh faces in here….the spring cleaning comment and all. I mean, wast that comment put because it was you who ran us away or maybe you were just glad that we were gone? Either way, it wasn’t nice.

Mentioning wins on the forum, to me is irrelevant. I am able to see them as the same as losses. The problem is that you caused so much heartache and ruined the forum last year over other people talking about wins and now you do it routinely. You also have told people what to do many times on this forum….you did say that the forum needed a spring clean due to all the moaning members, so clearly we are not the joyful bunch of addicts we should be! You put a stop to religious talk and ‘nipped that in the bud’, if you recall and you told me on numerous occasions to post less but then you post more and more yourself….you complain to rethink admin last year about me putting up literature to help others. You also suggested recently that we adopt a kiss approach and keep it short…You have kind of accused me of telling people what to do and dictating what goes on on this forum, when you have done just that, Joanne. You even told me not to talk to Mat anymore because of his posts about winning. You asked me to cut him off for the sake of the forum. Then there was all that about you saying I was attention seeking by posting and replying to people in need when it seemed obvious to me and others that it was you who was posting under those names on the forum to cause distraction and create conversation with people who did not even exist.
All these factors just led me to the conclusion that it isn’t anything to do with these factors or the things I do at all, it’s more a reason to dislike me.

Anyway, you need the forum more than me right now, so I am happy to step aside. I am feeling good right now and I can continue being a non gambler because I have the right mindset. Hope you put your relapse behind you and move on. I hope you stay well and please think about what I said in regard to winning. It’s not about posting about wins, Joanne. We all do that sometimes, it’s part of our ongoing story, but we need to see the lesson in trying to give up and keep winning in context of relapse. Therefore, since you relapsed, you lost. Or is £895 a fair swap for the many thousands you have already lost to gambling? Is £895 enough to ‘get you hooked again’? I said not long ago, ask yourself if you are trying to stop gambling or simply trying not to lose? Well, if your’e smart, you’ll see that we’ve already all done just that, so anything else we do will only result in more losses.
See it for what it truly is, Joanne. Winning a few quid doesn’t mean gambling has changed. It just means you’ve been given a free pass to lose again. Gambling equals losing. Whatever the outcome.
Now, I will leave you all to hopefully get on with the forum. Stay well Joanne and everyone.
Be back for my 100 days.

Joanne
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I only come here now to write my story. Absolutely everything I have written about my Gambling, the wins, the losses etc is the absolute truth. Over on Gamcare the forums are moderated, and yet people are allowed to document their story, wins, losses, debt, court appearances, whatever, without being pulled up. If fact they are encouraged to keep a diary of how their gambling unfolds, their feelings, concerns, their aims etc. Most people just document their story, just write it down, to get it out of their system, most don’t offer support, they just quietly go about trying to make sense of their addiction, setting goals etc. Nobody tries to tell anybody else how to think or feel, just the occasional word of encouragement.

Whatever the rest of you do is entirely your own business. If someone should post under my name, I will highlight the fact that it isn’t me. Whether you believe me or not, well nothing I can do about that.

Like I said, I’m just here to write down my thoughts and mind my own business.

Joanne

Joanne
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I meant to add, yesterday morning I read a post on Gamcare where somebody mentioned a 20 thousand pound win. That didn’t influence my decision to go out and buy 250 worth of lotto tickets. I bought them because I gave into my urges. I wanted that feeling of anticipation that you have before a gambling session.

McNulty is correct, folk need to concentrate on their own addiction because when all is said and done everyone has to do it for themselves.

However, it is obvious Jane that Mat, Loser, Trevor and others appreciate greatly your input, like I said, whatever the rest of you do is entirely your own business.

Hopefully in time, my posts will become less and less frequent.

Joanne

Jane
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Day 43 for me, Mat. Keep going. Don’t let the site get you down. I just read now and then, if it’s filled with crap, then I read elsewhere.
I also wonder how other distant members are doing like Carl, Mr X gambler. It was good to hear from Nik and Duncan again. So sorry that Loser relapsed. That hurt a lot to read that. It’s a shame the site is lost but keep focused, Mat. I will not post like I did before. What’s the point when I don’t know who I am talking to. I talk to you Mat, I know you are genuine and kind, as was Loser. So much doubt now so I can’t reply to others and feel the same about it. If Trevor wasn’t real, I must have missed that one. I certainly thought Trevor was real. I hope he is. Sorry if you are real, Trevor, but this site is so effed up, I don’t know what to think! It’s even managed to make me look sane and normal!

As for losing empathy Mcnulty, I don’t think so. On any other site, the abuser would just be blocked because people should not have to deal with abuse,especially on a site designed for support. It is removed for a reason because empathy has nothing to do with it. We tolerate the person, (and have proved that with months of continued support), we accept they have problems, (which is why we continue to support them) but we cannot tolerate the abuse because it is the abuse that has ruined the site and prevented everyone from not only supporting themselves but supporting others too, including the person trolling.

Just because this site is not moderated, we should not be expected to cope with the onslaught of abuse we have had to endure? We have shown so much empathy on this site. Myself more than anyone. I have forgiven people countless times, continued to support them and show kindness and it has always ended the same way because the empathy I show them is not returned to me. It is different for you McNulty, as you are more a passive member of this forum, and can be more objective. We have all spent a lot of time supporting Joanne, so when she behaves this way, it is hurtful and completely against the spirit of the site. She is not just a random troll, she is one of us so it is so much worse, given that she knows full well how hard the life of an addict is.
Whether right or wrong, I had every reason to think Joanne is behind this, where she has no reason at all to accuse me. Joanne says she is upset by those accusations but sees no harm in throwing the same accusations my way without any justification, except that she just doesn’t like me. I cannot help but notice that other people can say quite hurtful things to you, Joanne and it is water off a ducks back. Eg, Mat and Loser’s post to you were direct. If I say something, you jump on me because you are waiting for your opportunity to strike. Joanne you have always wanted to turn people against me, praising me one minute, then attacking me the next, calling me false and a fake. It is a theme that has run through this forum due to your weird fascination with me.

All you can say is why did it bother Jane so much when Joanne was trolled. It bothered me Joanne, because I believe you trolled yourself to create drama and distraction, to gain sympathy from us so that we would talk to you again. The same thing you have always done on the site and it ruined the site completely. That’s why it bothered me, just like it bothers me now. Nothing more than that. There is no one left posting because of all the nonsense. Nobody real anyway.
Why do I think you did it? I believe Joanne, that you did not want to lose your ability to use the forum and communicate with us since you are obviously lonely (the reason why I have given you so much time) and you have shown the need to post frequently, so I believe you continued to post nicely under your own name and get your usual kicks not by calling us under Joanne, but using other multiple names. That way, there is someone worse than you on the forum and in turn you become ‘one of us’. Maybe I watch too many X files, but these are my thoughts and I am being honest with you.

The thing is, as addicts, we all have mental and emotional problems, and we all have issues that make life very hard. If the majority of us can get along, share stories and advice and show kindness given our own heavy burden of problems, why should others be allowed to behave this way when it adds to the problems of others and removes their ability to use the site for the support they need.

Joanne you already admitted to posting as anonymous in you reply to Nik or Duncan. You definitely posted as Outside looking in when I asked you not to post about wins. I still believe that you are behind the majority if not all of the negative posters on this site, past and present. I still believe that you see me being here as confrontation and competition when I have done nothing but try to get along.
I do not apologise, Joanne for my thoughts. I have a right to think them. They are justified out of 18 months of your behavior on this site, particularly towards me. If my thoughts are wrong, then I am sorry. Only you know that for sure. However, you have given me no reason to believe otherwise. However, I still wish you well and hope you will be able to stop gambling. However, you will never learn about gambling and winning. You continue to post about wins on the site, despite causing so much pain for me and Mat last year because Mat won and posted about it. You turned the site against me and turned Loser against me because I would not stop supporting Mat when you all asked me to. The site is not for recovering addicts anymore. Too many triggers and yo yo behavior. Keep your wins to yourself and remember your losses Joanne. This is not a diary for winning and losing. It is to document recovery not revel in the cycle. At least now you can afford a Poundland diary to document your wins there.

I will post only my days and small updates from now on. There is no need to worry about my return, Joanne as I am just going to post milestones when reach them. I hope to inspire people that way instead and show by example that this can definitely be done.
So day 43 for me, next post 100 days.
All the best everyone.

Joanne
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Back gambling again, I knew it was going to happen.

Went out yesterday and bought 250 pounds worth of lotto tickets. I was secretly hoping I wouldn’t win anything so that I would see it for what it is, a waste of money. But of course I won, 895 pounds, so that’s me back hooked again.

Endless battle! I dread to think how much I’ve wagered over the past few years when you take into account the amount of money I’ve lost, and the amount I’ve won and lost.

Back to try again ….. Day 1

Joanne
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P.s. So wishing I could have a few bets on Royal Ascot, my favourite horse racing event. Never mind, been enjoying seeing the ladies fashions.

Now I’m being plagued with thoughts of s-cards now that I’ve got a few spare quid. Grrrrrrrrr

Joanne

mat
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15 days gamble free, what I do is read old comments lots of wisdom there I can also see my own dating back 2 years where the parasite cant post. I wish this site would go back to normal where genuine people used to post, I wonder how some posters from the past are doing and whether they have beat the demon.

Rizzo
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I don’t blame Joanne for leaving. She used to be upbeat but you could tell that she was starting to feel the strain of everyone accusing her, slowly starting to unravel. Ii hope the shits that messed with her head get a taste of their own medicine.

Joanne
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Ta!

Back to try again!

All the best, Joanne

Mcnulty
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You can tell they are some other people who have similarities with Joanne. Just here to raise dust whenever they can. John i don’t support anyone on here neither am I interested. What I don’t like is fights that are not helpful or connected to the cause of this site.
Gambling has taken space and morals. No wonder we lose the ability of empathy & direction.

We are missing out good, vibrant & real people with life stories to learn from. All going on due to unstable people?

Chill and refocus. Forget about Joanne. How can you be so furious with someone not well?

Joanne
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I’m perfectly well thank you, lol except of course for the gambling addiction!

All the best, Joanne

Joanne
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There is no big mystery. A troll (or creep) CM came to the site around September last year and has been causing mischief on the forum, posting under different disguises, making derogatory remarks etc Most of you jumped to the wrong conclusion that it was me.

It’s not me and I doubt I will ever convince you otherwise. So that’s it from me … Goodbye

Joanne

john
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these last two people nice try Joanne same bullshit style of writing Mcnulty made a post just about you kissing your ass you are a moron.

Mcnulty
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I am surprised that people still get offended by Joanne & actually indulge in battling with her. As I said this place was created to share our journey, troubles about gambling and how we can restore from the dangers of gambling. When people start talking about their personal life then you divert from the aim of this site.

Hence some people struggle with it probably you have nailed exactly what they are going through too. And don’t know how to deal with it.

You can tell Joane is not well. Nobody will change this.

Continue supporting each other positively.

If you feel this is not a place for you then leave quietly. Ignore Joanne or blaming her for your mood swing and loss.

Gamblers we like to blame everything else apart from ourselves.
Healing takes time. You have the responsibility to be consistent.

Wishing you all well.

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-no ur wrong bout this mcnutty it bout when people abuse the other people esp when all people supprt them before on this site that is divert from aim of the site.if people destry the site out of nasty spite and spring clean people out who need supprt in here and they talk bout them self over over again they divert from the site.if u want spring clean the site joenne take out trash which is u joenne and leave ur self close door behind u. u ruined this site for nothing no reason bt spite now no body post but u.bet u more shock when u see this post that not writ by ur self heh joenne?no body read this site no more.bad for addict people reading coments like the one u put joenne.u dont have heart or soul joenne an d u will not get well from the gambling coz u cant even leave the site for 30 min that why u be gambling addict all u life mcnutty right that u not well u shud get help but not in place like this site but may be home for sick people cuz u shud nt be runnin round loose

Miriam
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I fell upon this site and was excited because it appears to be a live way to share. I’m a Compulsive Gambler…and I’m afraid I won’t figure it out before burning through my retirement. I am planning on going to a GA meeting tomorrow night. I can’t seem to beat it… It doesn’t matter how much anyone loses if it’s everything in there pocket.
My last spree lasted 30 hrs. Finally I had to eat and rest, and yes, of course I lost.

john
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Just stop spamming Joanne cant you just leave it, go to work and do something with your sad life, what they meant is you lose your parents money cause there is no way you support your gambling, in work you are very busy and if you own a business you are even more busy, you sit here all day till midnight.
You are very annoying. Trevor never existed so did Julie nobody else is posting except the same 5 people. Jane, Loser, Mat and you. Now they even left you are here on your own.
It used to be a nice place in the beginning with lots of people and some REAL stories and now nobody will post this site is finished and its your fault.

Joanne
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I do support my own gambling. I have already explained how I work in an office on my own. I get email notifications for the posts on this forum, so when my phone vibrates, I quickly read them and respond. Only takes seconds.

Before I took up gambling I was starting to build up a successful eBay business. I’ve been trying to rebuild it, if I’m honest I’m finding it hard to get motivated again, hence the reason I’m often on my phone late into the evening, advertising items, printing out addresses etc. preparing items for posting.

I left home at 18, built up my savings through hard work, living well below my means. Then I discovered on-line gambling and because of this addiction lost a good chunk of it.

As for losing my parents money I won’t have to worry about that. I grew up in a large family and had to quickly learn how to look after myself. From the age of 14 I was out earning my own money. Like I said , I left home at 18 and since that day I have never gone back and asked my parents for a single penny.

I often think … what stopped me from losing absolutely everything to gambling and plunging myself into debt. I know what that reason is, its the very fact that i have to provide for myself and that has kept me from real harm.

Absolutely everything I have documented on here about my gambling losses etc is the absolute truth. Unfortunately!

Joanne

Trevor
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I do exist, thank you very much. All the stuff I put on here is genuine and honest. I’ve never posted as anyone else and I only post as Trevor. Just cos other people play games doesn’t mean I do. All the posts aligned to Trevor has come from me.,.Trevor.

I’m here to help others and to break my addiction. I’m not here to validate my existence. So go do one….if you’re for real.

Anonymous
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We know this is you Joanne, trevor is just one of your many characters *rolls eyes*

Joanne
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I have to admit you’re doing my head in. You’re a clever little s**t, I don’t know what to make of you.

I surrender, you win, I quit before I lose my sanity.

Joanne

Anonymous
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Ha ha

Joanne
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Loser,

You shouldn’t dwell on the fact that you didn’t reach 100 days. All of your recent posts gave the impression that you were going to gamble once you hit 100 days ie I miss it …. I really want to go gamble …. I won’t go until I reach my target …. it was more about reaching a target for you than trying to give up gambling long term. In otherwise you were abstaining ie trying not to gamble for 100 days instead of looking at it as a long term recovery ie never gambling again.

I think you should forget about aiming for targets , eg 100 days they serve absolutely no purpose, in fact they just add pressure. Aim for one day at a time for the rest of your life.

Whenever I managed to stop gambling for 50 days, whatever , I would then go on a real binge, lose complete control and lose a lot more money than when I gambled regularly. So don’t beat yourself up much as it may hurt right now. After not gambling for 40 days I would easily lose about three grand in one session and it hurt like h**l. Let’s face it whether you gamble regularly or binge gamble every second or third month the casinos get our money just the same. I lost exactly the same amount of money in the year 2015 when i gambled daily as i did in the year 2017 when i gambled every now and again. I basically lost everything I earned after living costs. The only way to win is to try and STOP and give them not a single penny more.

When you have built up some money from not gambling , when you do relapse a gambling session can last a lot longer. During a binge I would play non-stop for about 12 hours, one of the longest sessions I had was from 7 in the morning when my pay hit my bank account until 11 o’clock in the evening. I thought I was going to have a seizure when I finally stopped playing after running out of money. The wallls were quite literally bouncing, I could still see the reels spinning in my head. I could barely walk straight, I probably looked drunk. The next day my head felt like mince, similar to a bad hangover. After you have played for several hours your brain stops thinking rationally because as we know these machines are designed to hypnotize you and of course the longer you play , the more tired and dehydrated you become until you reach the point that you are no longer thinking straight and therefore are being controlled by these bloody machines. Like binge drinking, binge gambling can have far more serious consequences.

Plus it makes it harder to accept the loss because you’ve lost so much money in a single session.

I hope you’re okay. Keep busy.

Trevor, I’m glad you got some good news about your job security, it must have been a worrying time for you. Sorry you did some damage over the weekend, keep trying Trevor.

Joanne

Anonymous
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FAKE!

Joanne
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Unfortunately not, if you read back you will see that after abstaining from gambling for about a month or so I lost 3425 pounds in a single session on the 26th April 2017. I’d played for around 16 hours . Twice during the session I could have walked away with around 2000 pounds but because I had played for so long, was tired, hungry and dehydrated my brain was no longer thinking rationally and the machine had complete control over me. In other words I couldnt stop pushing the button. I was quite literally a ‘zombie’.

I get really f****d off (apologies for language, sheer frustration) at being accused of being a troll. Everything I have reported about my gambling sessions has been 100 per cent accurate.

The final straw for me was when I won approx 13 grand last month and lost it all again within 5 days. I just thought it doesnt matter how much I win, I will always end up giving it straight back.

I’m glad I lost the money, it taught me a lesson.

I’m so fed up of being accused of not caring. Despite all the s**t that has been thrown at me in the past , I have never wished anyone harm. Some of you bang on about ‘karma’, well I hope one day you’re not falsely accused of something you haven’t done, I hope nobody wishes you, your parents dead, that you lose all your money etc.

Joanne, a recovering gambling addict

Anonymous
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Nobody wished your parents dead! Read back!

Joanne
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You’re correct, nobody wished me, my parents dead, it was that I lose my parents money.

I apologise for reading that incorrectly.

Joanne

Joanne
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But I won’t apologise for my next comment … you must be one sad CREEP.

Anonymous
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You just love making things up so people feel sorry for you!

Anonymous
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I don’t know why you are sending a message to loser, he’s never coming back! It’s your fault!

Joanne
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I’m not going to engage in any further communication with you. At least I’ve always had a reason for being here, I’m a gambling addict whereas you’re just a CREEP.

Joanne (Day 20 something)

Anonymous
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You’re just an old slapper with a screw loose. You’re on your own here

Joanne
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I should have added …. when you binge gamble it is hard to accept the losses because obviously they are bigger. There is therefore the desire to try and win back some of the money. This is where the REAL DANGER lies because if you start chasing these losses you can easily double, treble these losses. That is why you often read of folk losing huge amounts of money like 20 thousand pounds within hours. Don’t be tempted to try and win back large losses.

john
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Just go away nobody wants you here we don’t care if you are CM you are retarded if you cannot see that, what is your problem stop spamming this site. You have no life and unemployed, talking to yourself all day on some site what drugs are you on.

Trevor
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Can’t shake this addiction. Just there lurking in the shadows. Waiting there just knowing I will want that buzz that hit of dopomine. Spent a wedge of cash over the weekend…now it’s tormenting me and torturing me mentally. We all know the lesson that needs to be applied…DONT GAMBLE. Why can’t we do this. The shop I work in isn’t closing so I’ve still got a job. Still there earning money so the gambling industry can thrive on my affliction. Let me starve as Nik said, before I give it away and I starve. I feel sorry for the homeless, I feel sorry for those suffering with alcohol, but I can’t feel strong enough to pack in gambling, or want it bad enough to stop gambling.

Keep trying to stop. That’s all we can do.

Joanne
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I’m still struggling with urges to gamble. Whenever I get notions to buy scratch cards or whenever I start searching for an online casino I haven’t already excluded from , I quickly flip over to Amazon and search for something nice to buy or look for some bargains. It takes my mind of gambling and it has been nice to come home and find something behind the door. Okay I’m still spending money but it’s pennies in comparison to what I would have spent on slots. Plus I may be able to turn a profit on some of the items I’ve bought.

Just a tip. It seems to be working for me.

Anonymous
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Just gamble and lose everything you good for nothing cunt

Joanne
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I shall be ignoring all negative comments made towards me from now on and focusing on my recovery.

I truly hope Loser is okay. I am disappointed that he thinks I’m CM. I could have retaliated and been unkind back but I’m very fond of Loser and I would never be disloyal to him. I could easily say things about loser on here but I never have and I NEVER will because despite what everyone else thinks about me I will forever be loyal to him even though he has lost faith in me.

Yep, I haven’t behaved very well or ladylike but I have acted out of sheer frustration because everyone thinks I’m CM. I’ve been trying to work out who he or she is, their reason for being here, whether he or she is somebody we know or just some random odd ball. Wouldn’t you do the same if you were the one being falsely accused?..

Joanne

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